Questions for Kaden part 1
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One of my coworkers who pledged for this event asks Kaden "If you could become normal again, would you?"
The answer changes, depending on the phase of her life you ask her. Some of you have read about her first encounter with the fae which occurred when she was around 8 or 9 years old and the impact on her life changes many times. Here's her answer at age 19, roughly the same time as the piece of story I've been working with today:
I would only choose to become fully human again if I would, as part of it, forget my experiences with my fae kin. Even then, its a maybe. But if I would remember, absolutely not. Would you choose to see the world in black and white after knowing for years that there were other colors? That's what it would be like. You have no idea what I see and how much more brilliant it is than my memories of what I saw as a kid. "they" say that children see the word most brilliantly with the most awe filled eyes but they are wrong. We do and it grows as we grow older. Our vision becomes deeper, richer.
Plus I can talk to faeries. Not that I don't love talking to humans as well because I am still, at my core, a human, but the fae are so different and they help me nurture parts of myself that most humans don't know they have.
If I knew I would forget... I suppose life would be easier if I were only a human. Its a lot to hide, that I'm seeing things others don't see. I've learned to because hospitals, not so much fun. Neither are anti-psychotics for people who don't need them. I was lucky my mother knew the truth and took me off those meds. That was when I was 12 and we had a LONG talk about what I should and shouldn't say at school anymore.
But.. No. I wouldn't go back. This is me now. I want to be me.
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The answer changes, depending on the phase of her life you ask her. Some of you have read about her first encounter with the fae which occurred when she was around 8 or 9 years old and the impact on her life changes many times. Here's her answer at age 19, roughly the same time as the piece of story I've been working with today:
I would only choose to become fully human again if I would, as part of it, forget my experiences with my fae kin. Even then, its a maybe. But if I would remember, absolutely not. Would you choose to see the world in black and white after knowing for years that there were other colors? That's what it would be like. You have no idea what I see and how much more brilliant it is than my memories of what I saw as a kid. "they" say that children see the word most brilliantly with the most awe filled eyes but they are wrong. We do and it grows as we grow older. Our vision becomes deeper, richer.
Plus I can talk to faeries. Not that I don't love talking to humans as well because I am still, at my core, a human, but the fae are so different and they help me nurture parts of myself that most humans don't know they have.
If I knew I would forget... I suppose life would be easier if I were only a human. Its a lot to hide, that I'm seeing things others don't see. I've learned to because hospitals, not so much fun. Neither are anti-psychotics for people who don't need them. I was lucky my mother knew the truth and took me off those meds. That was when I was 12 and we had a LONG talk about what I should and shouldn't say at school anymore.
But.. No. I wouldn't go back. This is me now. I want to be me.
*****
We've still got more Venturities to go!
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